ugh this again?

soo yeah, im pretty much head over heels for you again. and i kinda like it, i just hope its not another one of those...how do u put it 'brief infatuations' [: because i really do miss us. you were the first guy i made out w/....first guy i wanted to make out with. and i cant shake you. but you like kayla, and she lieks you so im kinda....screwed. but you like me too? just not as much as kayla, i can change that. because i really want us to be together again. but at the same time, you were the only person who has ever hurt me so bad that i cant get over you, you shattered my self esteem and left me broken. im not sure that i can let you do that again. i fully trust you but ...idk if i really should trust you. i think ..i think i need to think about this because im scared. im scared to get hurt again. because you left me in a terrible place and now with all my family stuff i wamnt everything to run smooth, and i feel like you can make me happier then ive been in a while and that really excites me but idk. i just. dont. know. my mom says i should never ever go back out with you...not that that even matters to me. but idk, i mean there are so many flaws w/u...i mean ur disrespectful to ur parents, u run away a lot, ur kinda quirky, at sometimes embarassing, not gorgeus, and you can totally crush me. i guess im leaving things up to you mike, its ur call here, because you have my heart entirely. and that scares me half to death.